I think I may have experienced sleep paralysis and it really scares me.
So just yesterday I had an experience that really scared me. I looked up some stuff and sleep paralysis seems to be the closest thing to explain what I experienced. So here's what happened. I woke up and I was in that state of "don't want to get up yet" so I tried to go back to sleep a few times. Weird thing was that whenever I closed my eyes I went into a dream almost instantly. First one was amusing as I could hear birds in the backyard clearly speaking English. Second one was really short, I turned and saw my mother on a lounge that I don't even have anymore, alongside my grandfather (Who passed away some years ago) and my mother simply shakes her head and says truly tragic.
Here's the scary part. So I wake, I'm clearly consious but I see this dark hooded figure right above me, like floating in the air just staring down at me. Just remember I'm awake here. That's when I can't move a muscle and I'm really struggling to speak. I was trying to say "You're not real." but I could barely get the words out and it was really hushed. I felt like I was being choked. I knew what I was seeing couldn't possibly be real but I was awake and couldn't move, no matter how much I wanted to. I was really struggling and I heard these experiences are much worse if you try to fight it and that might be why I had such rough time. This may be the first time I've ever felt genuinely terrified. Soon after I somehow managed to wave my arm and basically whimper "Get away." The figure was gone instantly and I could move. After that I obviously had no desire to sleep. I desperately wanted to get the fuck out of my room, so I immediately got up and left.
So I just really wanted to get that off my chest. I felt that I had to and I feel comfortable talking on these forums. Honestly I'm a little paranoid and scared about the idea of sleeping now. I never want to experience that again. So please share your thoughts. I don't mind discussing this and I think it might ease my mind.